Dear Child of Ours, Sometimes there are so many swirling thoughts, countless circumstances being juggled, it’s hard to know where to begin. It’s easy to feel paralyzed by the options and opinions. Deep breath. One thing at a time. I’m a future-planner. A get-all-my-ducks-in-a-row kind of person. Thus, I am so thankful for your Daddy, the guy […]
Why So Quiet?
Dear Child of Mine, I’ve thought of writing to you many times over the past two months. They’ve been very full weeks, traveling, making big decisions, spending time with people we love. But my absence isn’t due to my busy schedule. I easily could have carved out time to share my life with you. I […]
Birthday Kitten
Dear Little One, Last Monday, your Daddy celebrated his birthday. He turned 28. And we realized this is the 11th birthday we’ve celebrated together. How has time passed so quickly? The day before his birthday – on his brother’s birthday – his whole family joined us for lunch out at Nick and Nino’s (coal fired […]
In a Downpour of Love
Dear Little One, I’m not sure what prompted me to share my very personal procedure with the “world” on Facebook yesterday. It’s a strange thing, sharing the private details of your life with so many. But there was something inside of me that knew the people who love me would want to know, would want […]
Going Under
Dear Child of Mine, Tomorrow morning at 6:30, I’m going to try my best to think happy thoughts of you. I’m going to pray that what I’m about to do is successful and that God’s grace will pour out on us in the form of the pregnancy we’ve longed for. You see, early in the morning, I […]
Home Away from Home
Dear Little One, Your daddy and I can’t wait to have you with us at Family Camp. You see, for the past ten years of our lives we’ve been in a constant state of flux. First it was off to college, then summers of working at camp, then two major moves across three states in our […]
Commencement
Dear Child of Ours, On May 17th, 2014, exactly 6 years after graduating from Spring Arbor University, your father received his Masters of Arts in Theological Studies from Northeastern Seminary at Roberts Wesleyan College. It’s been a long educational journey, rooted in our following of God’s will. I don’t believe it was a mistake that […]
Sudden Death
Dear Child of Mine, How I wish I could promise your heart would never break, tears of sadness would never drip down your precious cheeks. But I can’t. This life is painful, sometimes surprisingly so. I saw a vague Facebook status of my friend, Ben, and sent him a message asking if he was ok. […]
In Michigan for Thanksgiving 2013
Dear Child of Mine, You have a wonderful family – both mine and your dad’s – that will absolutely adore you when you make your way into our lives. We were able to spend time with both the Eccles and the Fishes over Thanksgiving (I never knew how to make my last name Fish plural). Just […]
The Almost Adoption
My heart is in that hurting sort of place. I knew these kind of days would resurface, even after coming to a place of peace and contentment with our childlessness. But it seems to be impossible to completely ignore the desire and if I lost all hope that may not even be healthy, I don’t know. […]