To some it may seem your father and I have been a bit passive in this infertility journey. There are so many tests to be taken, procedures to be performed, personal boundaries to be invaded, dollars to be spent, money to be saved, appointments to be made, advice to be followed. The options for infertile […]
Stage Sisters
No, Child, I’m not referring to friendships I’ve made in the theater. (Although I would LOVE to be in another musical someday…but that’s another conversation for another time.) I want to tell you about the little community of sisters who surround me, envelope me in their love, bare their own needs, and share burdens. These […]
We Already Have Four Kids
Dear Children of Mine, I need to tell you right off the bat–we already have four kids. SPONSOR KIDS, that is. In 2005, I began sponsoring Umuhoza Albert, a little boy from Rwanda. I was a sophomore in college, with no real “home” church, but a conviction that I needed to tithe from what little […]
How Many Will There Be?
Dear Child of Mine, I thought it important to emphasize that these letters, aren’t just for you, the firstborn. You are not the only desire of our hearts. Should God grant us just one child, then certainly, our words are for you alone. But should He allow us to parent two or three or more children, […]
Hope or Optimism?
Dear Child of Mine, I love being able to write to you. It gives me a purpose and a focus, both of which seem very allusive to me these days. These letters are a pretty honest look into the real me, my likes and dislikes, the things that excite me and the situations that bring […]
3 Years, 6 Months
Dear Child of Mine, Today we usher in another year, 2014. I think it’s going to be a good year, if for no other reason than it’s an even number. (Your mother likes even numbers. I liked being 10 years old. Eleven? Not so much.) Last January 2013 was the first time I publicly shared […]
Finding Humor in our Conception Struggles
Dear Child of Mine, I have to be honest with you. While the issue of infertility is very painful, and our desire to have you is very real, sometimes I switch things up and lighten the mood. I’m sure I throw people off by the things I am able to joke about. But I figure laughter […]
A New Blog Audience
Dear child for whom I pray, Do you know the depths of my heart’s longing to be your mother? I have dreamed of you since I myself was a young girl, playing “house” with my dolls, pretending they were my very own baby. A girl of just 2 or 3 years old, I often clung […]
My Multitude of Children
Seeing as how it’s Mother’s Day, I thought I would share some pictures of the children God has blessed me with over the past 5 years. Though I may not yet (or ever) have biological children of my own, my life is rich, filled with dozens of kids who become an integral part of my […]
Why is Adoption So Difficult?
The April 8th reading from Oswald Chambers’ My Utmost for His Highest says, Our Lord’s Resurrection destiny is to bring “many sons unto glory.” The fulfilling of His destiny gives Him the right to make us sons and daughters of God. We are never in the relationship to God that the Son of God is in; but we are […]